I wonder if there are out there, other people who fear inspiration. I do.
The problem is that I am, artistically, horribly ambitious. I would love to play the piano like Leif Ove Andsnes and direct an orchestra, with the connection, sensitivity and artistic vision he has. I would love to sit at the piano and learn and practice for hours on end. I would like to be a painter, a dancer, an actress, an Opera singer, a clothes designer, and do all of those things to perfection. And it is impossible, unless you don’t do anything else! All of them, full time activities.
And I must write. I must, as you must give birth to a baby you love and want.
I wish I could create and give birth to the nearly limitless art-expression-children of my mind and my heart that I would dream of having.
Perhaps I will re-incarnate into a limitless being with limitless artistic possibilities and limitless time.
But, I do like earth, and my time here… what shall I do?
patrissiacuberos 
i too long
for more
knowing
i must practice
practice, practice
and kindly accept
the fruits
of this practice!
best success to you 🙂
I always appreciate your lovely comments. Thank you for your thoughtful words and for sharing some of your experience with me. I wonder if the practice you refer to, is spiritual or if you also practice some form of art? When I was younger, my spiritual life and practice was, somehow, disconnected from my daily reality. Although, there are aspects of that practice that I miss (deep transcendental, blissful experiences while meditation and praying) I decided at some stage that I wanted to be a relatable bridge for others and that place was right in the middle of the often confusing turmoil of life, with all its passions, desires, experiences. In a way, my spiritual life is a secret that I share with very few, but anyone who cares to read my books or blogs with that vision, will hopefully understand and perhaps connect to. Blessings